I’m sitting here writing this post with sweaty hands, a speeding heart and shaking in my voice. Something has been in my heart for a few months now and I’ve been praying about it. I wanted to take my time in this decisions and not make any emotional, fast decisions. With all that being said, I have decided to end my business, Suzanne Garland Photography. Know I feel like I could puke! But I also feel at peace. Who knew writing those words could be so freeing. Its been hard to even say them out loud. For the last five year, my business has been my baby. I have had the honor of getting to be apart of so many weddings + welcomed into my couples lives like I was a long time friend. The intimacy of someones wedding day is something I will cherish forever. Thank you to every person who has believed in me and invested in me. You made this season so amazing. My business wouldn’t have been the same without each couple, family, baby, milestone, gathering I’ve been able to photograph.
So why you may be asking? Last year was one of my biggest years in my business. I was flying all around the country shooting beautiful weddings and making friends with amazing clients. That was so incredible. But half way through the year we started trying to grow our family again. We finally had a diagnosis, treated it and were ready to move forward with treatments. After many failed treatments by the end if the year and the beginning of 2017, I realized just how time consuming this journey was becoming. These treatments weren’t revolved around my schedule, it was the schedule of my body. Then when we found out that our next step was IVF, it became an ever BIGGER process. All the while the thought of scheduling weddings + shoots was giving me anxiety. Thats not good. I was already under enough emotional stress so I knew it was a recipe for disaster. I couldn’t imagine having a wedding booked and then bam! we need to you to come in today for a scan….. So you can imagine the anxiety I was feeling. So I decided to step away for a short time.
Now that we are where we are after our IVF failed, we are thinking to the future. We have no intention of giving up on starting our family. We plan to keep pursuing options and we have a frozen embryo waiting on us. In this time I have found the business side of Young Living. I have been pursing it for a little over 6 months now and have found a home in it. This business allows me to share something I’m passionate about, work when I want, take off last minute if I need and meet other woman all over the world who have the same struggles or have had them. I feel that God has lead me here for a reason and have no intention of looking back! I was nervous to be in an network marketing business, but once I saw the values of the company and the people that do this business too, I felt such a peace. I’m excited to see what the future holds with my business and our family.
I don’t plan to give up photography, just my business. I have a DEEP love for photography and plan to always use that gift the Lord has blessed me with. It will just be for our personal photos, friends, travel and as a hobby!
We can’t go into full detail about what is next in growing our little family, but I will continue to blog about it, along with other personal things! Once again, thank you to every person who has believed in me and invested in me. I love you all big!